Typing My Heart Out.

So. I think I'm just gonna start typing and see where this leads me.

I. feel. SO. lonely.
Last night, my roommate asked me why I never participate in conversations or talk that much.  And it ended up being a hour and a half long conversation with all my back story as to why I don't talk anymore.  Which kinda goes to say, don't ask me to talk, because I'll talk forever after that.  But anyways, the fact that I can't even bring myself to talk to others due to past experiences scares me.  I used to be so outgoing and lovable, now I feel that I'm cold towards others.  I'm so scared to open myself up to new people, because I feel like I'm going to be shutdown. Again.