This year has just....been SO disheartening so far. Last year, I couldn't wait to come back to Flag and get out of my house. Now, I just want to spend all my time at home.
I mean, I love my classes (for the most part) and going to school, it's just I don't feel like I belong up at Flag anymore.
Maybe this is just because I don't have friends like I used to, and my roommate is so inconsiderate of me, but I just don't want to deal with it anymore!
I know that I'm staying up here in Flag until I graduate in 3 1/2 semesters, but I want that sense of belonging again.
I miss so many people who don't have time for me anymore.
You know how I always say that I'm going to be a cat lady? Well, that is my biggest fear. That I will end up alone and loveless. I see all these happy couples, and I want to break down because I honestly don't believe that I will find that in my life. Being my friend's MOH really made me open my eyes to this fear.
Maybe I'm just going crazy due to loneliness.
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